It’s the Jewish New Year! Happy New Year… and here I go starting it all off in a funk! There are issues I continuously struggle with and just when I think I’m making progress, I find myself back where I started! It is frustrating, but I guess it is also part of the human condition… so at least I know I’m human! It might be easier to be otherwise!
If I were a table I would not question my intrinsic worth or what value I bring to the world. I would not feel pain or get my feelings hurt — but I would also never know how wonderful a baby’s giggle is, could I?
I guess everyone has ups and downs… I just need to refocus and remember: Success is never ending and failure is never final. It is easy enough to type… and even to think of in an abstract way… but sometimes failure’s weight crushes me. The “failure” itself is questionable. It is a perception, a label, not necessarily an accurate one. Thomas Edison said that every failure brings us closer to success. So if I can re-frame what I think of as failure into a learning experience… wow, then that sure would make me feel smarter!
For the new year I shall echo Tevye’s question from Fiddler on the Roof… When he questions God… “Would it spoil some vast eternal plan if I were a wealthy (wo)man?” Yet I know it would not spoil a plan and that I already have that wealth… I just feel that I don’t at times. My poor brain feels swollen right now with this perverse zen koan of mine… I must go to bed and get some sleep… hopefully waking up in a better state of mind tomorrow!
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